As a child I observed
endless scenes of hard labor,
low wages,
landless tillers and sugar
cane-slashers
harsh as the exploitation of workers
poisoned land
killed in acidity and fire
I did not question
I did not know what to ask
I even wanted to forget
In memory of the childhood wakeful
nights
with the trembling ground as train
passes
I snore in the wind chill of forgotten
crimes
when i burry my endless dreams in my
pillow
so I no longer keep a helpless
anticipation
of seeing myself
drenched in my fear
alone in my guilt
buried in shame.
for being poor
for not asking.
Bullets and guns are everyday meals
in times of military offensive
cannon balls roared and shook the
mountains
I was too young to understand
the leftist spite of bureaucracy
The dictator dependent economy exploded
like a bubble
and left the people with nothing but
foreign debts
The land were used by the landlords
To produce crops for the giant
corporations
The land is no longer for food but for
money
Left the people hungry
I learned the word poor
I heard the word hunger
for landless people lost their jobs
including my father
The sugar cane fields have turned
bitter
with tears of children
with no food to eat
I heard many people have gone missing
and saw thousands of people in
television
took the streets in protest
I felt my stomach turning
I heard the promise of a much better
food production with green revolution
Imported seeds, pesticides, herbicides,
fertilizers became a business
And for so many years, the farmers were
buried under insurmountable debts
that they took to their graveyards
But the story of poverty is a lesson
forgotten
Many more followed with a bigger dream
Expanding endless fields of export
crops
Converting forests and farms
With lines of sugarcanes, pineapples
and bananas
Farmers forced to sell their lands
became farm workers
There is something wrong
This time more sophisticated with economic
invasion
The once prolific country is now at the
mercy
Of imported patented rice
We are now slaves to Monsanto and
Cargill hybrid rice and hybrid corn
This greed opened my eyes
My childhood has planted enough fears in my
frail young body
that sprouted an incurable shyness until I learned to break
out from a hula beat
Later my lungs gasp for more air
as I swirl to the
various records imported from America
I learned the word imported
Then some French fries grew in the appetite of a city dweller
willing to
digest imported labels
Global economy gave birth to excessive
consumerism
The Philippines made it even
sophisticated with imitation
Imported products
which marked the death of local
products
graveyards for the death of culture and
tradition
stories of my people never told
I have many more stories to tell
So I dance them
I chant them
I participate in the storytelling
Is this art? I don’t know…
I want to find my voice…
I want to be heard
But I fear in my heart in some
occasions
That my voice will be used against me
I made films, poems, songs
Intimidated audiences in performance
art
Questioned the streets with theater and
colors
Shouted no to nukes… no to US bases… no
to aerial spray… no to GMO
Am I relevant?
Am I heard?
Am I true to myself?
What is change?
What is to live?
What is the answer?