i am cradled in the womb of disaster
as we build new homes for people
as we invent games for the traumatized children
as we gather the pieces back of our shattered dreams
as we re align the cruel consequences
of living next to the water
of living next to the water
with earthquake sink holes and raised seashores
with flattened houses and mass graveyards
with debilitating thick blood of war of religion
with orphaned children and violated skin colors
with increasing roofless refugees
with the uncontrolled viral outbreak of ebola
with debilitating thick blood of war of religion
with orphaned children and violated skin colors
with increasing roofless refugees
with the uncontrolled viral outbreak of ebola
I am also reinforcing my own inner infrastructure
as disturbing melodrama of my own personal storm
browsing the virtual universe of the online community
keeps me updated with news of human failures
keeps me updated with news of human failures
and the lessons of dysfunctional families
emotional debris of tragic disasters
emotional debris of tragic disasters
how compromising and demanding to be human...
at times i feel defeated by the characters
who plays antagonist and revolves around me
though from a distance i am enriching my life
with experience as active spectactor of life
these characters are novelty classic personas
i am likewise numbed as I co-exist
with the rest of the pained and left behind
with the rest of the pained and left behind
multi tasking for my multi-facted projects
saves my sanity
saves my sanity
with such responsibility
I accepted with a sense of sacrifice
I accepted with a sense of sacrifice
a constant surrender to life
as my body drowns to sleep
anxiety and panic disintegrate to the altered state
anxiety and panic disintegrate to the altered state
it saves me from the death of reason
I crave for the mundane in times of solitude
the human flesh desire intimacy
the human flesh desire intimacy
driven by the passionate impulse
to feel secure and loved
to feel secure and loved
in a relationship, in a family, in a community
I feel life's pleasures are too fragile to drag along
but worth all the efforts and pains of longing,
is living, loving and learning enough
is living, loving and learning enough
i am certified hopeless romantic
officially turned cold in the torture of the other
officially turned cold in the torture of the other
my poetry cuts though the bile that saves me
from insanity and seasonal affective disorder attack
from insanity and seasonal affective disorder attack
my first aid and antidote for my existence
my life's journey is both absurd and melodramatic
my family is a full house with characters of all kinds of archetypes
a talented self-depreciating ex-alcoholic dependent deceased Alpha male
a talented self-depreciating ex-alcoholic dependent deceased Alpha male
a martyr codependent victim in self-denial and in constant lies matron
a practical self-driven distant non-emotional rational genius brother
an abusive dependent trouble maker self-destructive brother
a practical self-driven distant non-emotional rational genius brother
an abusive dependent trouble maker self-destructive brother
an insecure multi-task creative wandering middle child
a trying-hard self-depreciating aggressive and melodramatic sister
a trying-hard self-depreciating aggressive and melodramatic sister
a hit-and-miss impulsive hard headed humorous immature sibling
it is a rich texture of the surreal imperfections and karmic settlements
i have got familiar with the comic relief of absurdities and dysfunctions
we are all part of a whole karmic healing dance
life is a complete workshop
it is a rich texture of the surreal imperfections and karmic settlements
i have got familiar with the comic relief of absurdities and dysfunctions
we are all part of a whole karmic healing dance
life is a complete workshop
my mid life crisis is preoccupied
by the melodramatic fears of losing and joys of owning
I am rather interested with the details of all these complexities
that gives me a reason for living
that gives me a reason for living
and a life to die for and love for...
In my travel, i gather all textures,
all colors, flavors, feelings and adventures
all colors, flavors, feelings and adventures
I am a curious spectator of life's wins and adversaries
and as a self-contained lunatic
that have witnessed the low and high tides of existence
that have witnessed the low and high tides of existence
somehow the push and pull of circumstances
pumps blood to my heart
pumps blood to my heart
then reminds me that life is about living
and doing what you do best
then I think about love...
i become invisible and endangered...
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